I have a sucky feeling

This title looks decidedly juvenile, something which under ordinary circumstances I would cringe to put on in my blog. Anyway, today I don't really care, I am royally pissed. PISSED.

What if you were told of something that would require you to radically change your life as you knew it, that you had spent some time resolving your inner apprehensions to psyche yourself up for it, something that you had planned at lengths for, overcoming the doubts into enthusiasm; and just like that, it was pulled. The rug under your feet that you thought you had stood firmly on was just yanked away. No warning, no signs, no explanations, no epilogue. Just yanked from underneath your feet.

Fall? More like plunge into a deep abyss, where you see no bottom to which you would eventually reach? Darkness..... Despair..... Distress....... Disillusionment........

Nobody likes the feeling of being treated like yesterday's garbage...... Where do I go from here? Its taking more self-control than I possess not to spout vulgarities..... I suppose a simple click of the mouse would save me from this struggle............