Live and let live

In case anyone really reads this blog more than once, I have deleted all my Dragon-themed posts. As the title of this post suggests, i should not harbor so much bitterness and hatred in me. Maybe I just came from church and all. Could also be I came across a rather meaningful blog http://lyn.petisa.net/blogger.html
Using blogs as an evangelistic tool, its an interesting medium. Most of the blogs I come across either consists of sexual themed post, banal meaningless details of the blogger's life which interest absolutely no one, or bitter senseless bitching like what I did with the Dragon saga.

Of course with an address like slackerloafer, expectations are kinda different I would presume. Of course the least I can do is not to bitch, excessively. So, there you have it, no more dragons.

Another point to note, my friend reminded me that there are some elements of the past that still plague me. Like I was bitten by a dog as a child, if the painful memory is not obscured, it should be a black Alsatian like dog. Since then, my emotions towards dogs range from irritation to disgust to paralyzing fear. For the last category, have you seen the size of some huge monstrous dogs some people keep? I rather bump into Jack the Ripper at night than these beings. Why do people keep dogs the size of a Yeti or something? How much do those things eat? Do you need a tim sum trolley to transport their dinner out?

Another case in point, teachers. I hated teachers since I was a child and I realize possibly because of my previous experiences I am still remarkably prejudiced against them. As my friend reminded me, I was not exactly a model student in school but I was not exactly the stuff that teacher's nightmares were made of. To elaborate further, I am not a docile, roll-over and play dead kind of student, i push my luck with my hair length, punctuality etc. And I was never challenging for top honours in school. Yet I never got into fights, play pranks on teachers, play truant and the like. And I got decent grades during my 'O's and 'A's (good enough to get me to the course I wanted) though my Uni grades were quite horrific, especially in the final year.

Yet my teachers treated like the very scum of the earth. One teacher commented that I would never amount to anything in life. The only basis I can think of for him making this statement is it takes one to know one. Maybe when I am pushing 50, and my career has been stagnant for two decades, I will resort to destroying children's self-confidence to build mine.

To give you an idea of how warped this teacher in question is, he once showed me a newspaper cutting that showed the photos of 2 bank robbers or some other petty criminal. Then he declared that I am going to be just like that bugger because his hair style was similar to mine. Great reasoning right? I mean I was absolutely floored at that logic. Wonderful, dogs breathe. Humans breathe. Therefore dogs are humans and humans are dogs.

Of course its really unfair of me to discredit the entire teaching industry just because of some black sheep like that. Life goes on I guess, live and let live.

"forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors"

Though I lack the natural grace not to harbour any bitter thoughts in me, i would not want to be judged as the unforgiving servant Jesus talks about. As the Lord has been merciful to me, so should i be to others in my life. Without the grace of God, I know I probably will carry a lot of baggage with me to the grave.

I guess letting go of past hurts is never easy. Forgiveness is even worse. That's why we all need a saviour and a redeemer.

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