Crushes

Dunno why i suddenly felt inspired to write about this. It seems like the stuff that adolescents talk about, not not-so-young adults like myself. Anyway, who cares, everyone is entitled to their own little bout of fantasy right? Besides, i am not THAT far from teenage.

More to the point, sometimes, you just meet someone who for some inexplicable reason just causes your heart to race uncontrollably and all sense of reason departs. I always consider it a silly form of expression "my heart beat so fast i could hear it" until like around 2 months ago, i met this girl near my office whom, yup you got it, caused my heart to thump so hard and fast i could really feel my heart beating.

Which is silly. Period. Though our offices are like next to each other and periodically we bump into each other, what on earth do you think will come out of it? She is like....... unattainable. Haha, so i did write some rubbish on my thoughts of this. But, reality check. I am not the smooth/casanova type to walk up to her with some pick-up line whatever and just ask her for her number. Never happened before. Don't think things are going to change any time this century.

Anyway, back to this crush thing. Its not exactly a crush strictly, i mean i don't really anticipate anything to come out of this. Just its kind of fun to have something to break the monotony of working. Like you have something to look forward to other than payday, just the chance occurence of bumping into her. Like when we were in school, crushes were as common as acne at that age. You have this crush on your classmate and you would never want to miss a day at school, even if you are sick. Or if she happens to go to the same lecture as you, even if it is some ridiculously dry topic like quantum physics or organic chemistry, you would rather eat bitter gourd than to skip the lecture. Of course let not dwell on the details regarding how much of the lecture you actually absorbed.

So even when we are out in the work force, crushes may not seem completely out of place. Just like we should always just maintain a little innocence from the time when the four Heavenly Kings (Michael Jackson, hahaha) were (was) still popular (ok, i should find another analogy), like staying over at a buddy's house and just bitch, playing silly pranks on your friends and making fun of irritants like dragon lady (haha, not going let a chance go by without taking a swipe at her) .......... and having a harmless crush on someone who does not even know you exist.

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